SEARCHING – AUGUST 2018

Oh, Lord, there is an emptiness
As in need I search for You -
For I cannot find the way ahead.
As I scramble on a cracking ledge,
Will You catch me as I fly and fall?
As I descend to depths and to great heights, soar?
As I turn and toss in the whirlwind’s draught?
And swing and sway and lose control?
 
I think of You when I awake
And at night, as I close my eyes
I think of You in the garden so green
And in the black of a midnight sky.
I wonder what life has in store,
And whether or not, I can stay the course?
I ponder on Your truth and hope,
Your promises made and my promises frayed –
By selfish pursuits and wasted gains!
 
Are You there with each faltering step I take,
Holding my hand on the oh-so-narrow path?
I know it’s impossible to walk free,
Unless You’re there all the time with me.
 
So I thank You now, and again and again –
That every stain is wiped away
And that Your love pulls me clear, from danger and fear
And every tear is washed away
And that into my hand You place a staff
Made of mercy, and crafted by Love
 
As You draw me close and keep me on track.
I know that I can never look back…
I keep my eyes fixed hard on You
For I’ve been broken and made good.
One look to You, can turn everything around
For You place me on true solid ground.
But my search is not over, for Your heart I seek
Until face to face, we meet.
 
 
Julie Hughes 27.8.18